Found out some crazy news today It def. Hasn’t hit yet.. Or sunken in.. :/
Everything he said he’s going back on it’s crazy just how much he had me fooled.. I’m done being the last to know..
Who are you.. Please tell me.. What u said was so nice and honestly I needed to smile.. Thank you
Alone on new years in an empty house.. Exciting
Watching the rest of my family pack and go on a extremely fancy awesome vacation while I’m left behind because I know and they know I don’t deserve to go .. Is way harder than I thought? .. I dont know how much things can get worse for me I’n 2011 but it’s worth a shot now I guess
“so if you catch me trying to find my way into your heart..from under your skin..”
so Dec for me has been pretty much a let down other than the few occasions i spent with my beautiful family. I try to always remember even though im fighting my demons and dealing with my depression when it comes down to it my family is the one thing to pull me out of that, even if it is just for a few hours..I got a bunch of amazing gifts for Christmas and spent some great time with my family, some pretty shitty things happened this month and honestly its leaving me in a rut. I thought I found a man to love me and want to put the time in to be with me..and turns out he needed “space” dont you love that line..its such a crock of shit..ha..oh well..I’m not gonna let it affect me anymore he’ll think of me..and when he decides he wants to talk to me who knows what ill be doing hopefully too busy with a new job and friends to fit him in my schedule, i do love the man..but im not gonna sit around and beg to just see him its pathetic on not only his end but def. mine..im worth every ounce of someone else’s time and basically its time i start trusting myself.